"How did you feel this week. Anxious Why did you feel anxious. I have anxiety What caused your anxiety. I don’t know Can you think of anything?" At this point I will be thinking of things to make up because I didn’t have an answer to my anxiety. I didn’t understand the feeling. I felt like I was being quizzed, tested. I needed a reason. I needed to explain to my only hope of help why I felt this. I didn’t know why. So i’ll go through the week in my mind and try think of anything relatable to have an answer for her. An answer to the unexplainable. I don’t understand why my chest feels heavy, my throat feels tight, my palms sweat and my breath feels incomplete. I couldn’t explain why I was feeling this way. If I could I wouldn’t need to be just another sick patient contributing to your pay check. I came to you with the hope you’d make this unexplainable feeling and emotion disappear. You helped me find the root of the problem, but I need a solution. A solution nobody has. I fee...
Anxiety feels like fear, when there's nothing to be scared off. Feels like you need to throw up when there's nothing making you feel sick. The feeling like you can’t control your breath, like every breath you take is getting shorter. Like the air is running out. You can hear your heart beating and feel your hands sweating. Feels like you're stuck inside your own head and can’t escape the feeling of feeling like something bad is going to happen. Every ambulance, every police car you hear, you wonder if it’s someone you love, when you can feel an anxiety attack come you can’t concentrate on what people are saying, because you’re trying so hard to focus on making it stop, when someone is talking to you, your staring at them in the face, but have no idea what they just said, because all you can hear is a blur of their words and your heartbeat. Your breath. You feel like you can’t escape, you’re trapped in this world of fear and anxiety. It seems like it will never e...